Tuesday, July 1, 2014

12:25 AM

It's been so long since I've written a post here, but it's because things have been going either too fast or too slow in my life that I can't really keep up with it all.

As of now I'm broke (so what's new) and kinda in between things. Not really sure what state I'm in now. The only thing I know is that I have a pending job interview and I need to ace it, a crushing dilemma concerning my tuition fee that I need to handle immediately, and a handy laptop that needs a new home. I also need a great dose of motivation 'cause I can't get myself to do anything productive these days.

I'm typing this right now 'cause as of the moment I'm a bit lonely. I mean, my life right now I the best, I guess, apart from the financial stress. I have great friends, an awesome family, and a healthy and happy heart. This is just an of-the-moment thing, this loneliness. Usually this time I'll be writing another heartbreaking gut-wrenching song, but I can't think straight right now. It's like someone or something blocked off the creative juice that is my art. Kinda obvious in this blog post, huh? My sentences are incoherent beads strung together by Elmer's glue.

 Ah well. This post is going nowhere. At least a bit of the loneliness is gone.


P.S. My life's summarized by an Almost Lover loop.

Friday, January 31, 2014

New song: Hide N Seek

Loving someone doesn't always guarantee satisfaction.

Hide N Seek is another original, and, well.. when you read the lyrics and listen to the song, you'll know what it's about. It's self-explanatory :)

Here you go:
Hide N Seek (original)

P.S. I think I'll be recording this soon with my friend, though I'm not sure when.. But I'll definitely post the song here when it's finished :D

New Song: Overthinking (orig)

Before I sleep, I am always tormented by an endless stream of thoughts that I've blocked out during the day. I've always had the tendency to over-think - that trait of mine has been a blessing a couple times, but recently it has been a curse. Because of this I would end up sleeping in the wee hours of the morning (like 5 or 6 in the morning), or not at all.

Overthinking is a song I wrote so that a part of my thoughts (I hoped) would quiet down and I'd finally sleep a little better at night (Helped a little. Very little).

Here's a link to the song:
Overthinking (original)

New Song: Too Slow (original)

Too Slow is a song I made in about 5 minutes, and it's in response to a song a guy I knew made for my friend (a female) about their hopeless love.


Here's a link to the song (lyrics are available in SoundCloud):
Too Slow (original)

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Friday, November 29, 2013

New song: Simple Revelation

She liked this guy but he left her hanging. She moves on, then he comes back after a really long time, telling her he loved her all along.

Simple Revelation is a song about that girl's thoughts, frustrations, tears, confusion, and all the other things.

Simple Revelation (original composition by A. Carlos)
P.S. The song quality is bad, sorry about that :(

Sunday, October 13, 2013

What

I feel cheated. You, who I thought was one of my closest friends, decided to exclude me in your list of people you deemed worthy to be called your friends.

Am I to just assume that there has been a mistake? That somebody else crossed out my name in the invitation-only guest list? That you had amnesia or something?

What the hell.

It's like every little thing, every painstakingly little thing that happened in the past years meant nothing, now that you're "above all of us". Like every little thing I did for you is now complete rubbish.

I do not believe in the Filipino thing called "utang na loob", don't get me wrong. It's just that what you did just threw away the wonderful friendship I thought we had.

I'm sorry I don't have enough glam, or money, or connections, whatever. Your loss, anyway.

I wouldn't have been so bitter if not for the fact that I really cherished our friendship to the point that I sacrificed a lot of shit just to be a good friend to you, and you just drop me like I'm merely garbage.

Good luck with your future endeavors.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

3

Loneliness: a word that sounds so forlorn, you can almost taste the longing and desperation in the deafening pain.

But what if, after years and years of pain, you find peace in that loneliness? What if - and bear with me, please - it changes you, it becomes part of you? That it becomes a passion that you wouldn't dare part with? I don't know. It sounds wrong while I'm typing this but somehow, the loneliness consumes me and gives me a sense of freedom and passion when I work.

I sound like a madman, I know. Or a psychotic neurotic mess. Or a schizophrenic little girl who just experienced the greatest debacle of the century. It's actually a struggle for me when I try to explain this (try being the operative word) to people I trust because it's not a socially acceptable thing.... One even told me I needed to see a psychologist, quick.

Is it so wrong to take your pain and turn it into something good? 'Cause that's what I did.